Whatever you say
Thoughts from Psalm 119:105-128 in the Passion translation.
Have you ever been so determined to stick to your new weight-loss diet that before meeting friends for dinner you looked at the menu online so that when everyone started ordering “cheat” meals, you already knew which salad you were going to order, with dressing on the side? I applaud you if you’ve ever planned ahead like that. Your mind was made up. You knew what you would and wouldn’t do before the bread basket ever landed in the center of the table.
When I read verse 115, I felt like David was in the midst of similar choices, “Go away! Leave me, all you workers of wickedness, for you can’t stop me from following every command of my God.” Obviously, choosing who you will serve pales in comparison to the choice of what you will eat, but the determination to choose your beliefs and be so grounded in your conviction that you cannot be swayed, regardless of what is going on around you, is very much the same. David does not pretend to be perfect or have it all together. In fact, he even admits, “I’m bruised and broken, overwhelmed by it all”, but his cry is followed by this plea: “breathe life into me again by your living word.” David understands that the only hope of a victorious life in the midst of a dark and lonely world is to lean fully into the presence of God and invite Him to direct your steps through brokenness into wholeness.
Years ago, I had a Bible school teacher that would always say, “Put the Word of God in you when you don’t need it, so it will be there when you do need it.” We all have days, and even seasons, that feel easy enough to do it all on our own. Don’t be so foolish as to believe that the enemy is not planning his attack against you. In those seasons, fill yourself up with the Word of God, stake your ground, and make your decisions in those moments so that when the enemy comes against you to kill, steal, and destroy (John 10:10), you are armed and ready for battle. Be intentional about falling so in love with Jesus that He becomes your place of quiet retreat, and His wrap-around presence becomes your shield as you wrap yourself in His Word! (v 114). Make verse 112 the cry of your heart, “I have determined in my heart to obey whatever you say, fully and forever!”